This is a part of my journaling session this morning, a week after processing a traumatic experience. I hope this gives you relief. Enjoy, friends.
I am so grateful and appreciative of all the love, pure great intentions that we must have that people have given to us so generously. I am grateful and appreciative that I’ve practiced the capability of fully receiving and appreciating their kindness, thoughts, and prayers. I am so grateful and appreciative of such love that I am called to give back so generously as well. Moment: when people check in with me Meaning: they really give me energy to move forward. people want to see us win. They don’t judge us as we judge ourselves and I think I learned more and more everyday to give more love towards contrast. and be so appreciative of the pain and hurt, the distance from where I am to where I dreamt of going… because I learn from it and I can see how powerful I actually am. I do believe in miracles. I do believe that I am fully supported. I do have so much faith in the love I have for the world, and myself included. I do feel an elevation of light, an elevation of truth, an elevation of gifts that I can’t really articulate yet and I’m okay with that. 🙂
I would honor and love to be such a bright light to those to facilitate a space of love, to use what I have to embody such grace, compassion, truth and resilience. Such spiritual intelligence that we all have access to. I learn with each conversation. I’m open to becoming such an open space for miracles when I’m in love rather than in fear. If I just keep leaning towards love, expansion, eagerness to love more, expand and see, come from there, then I feel marvelous. Just in my voice blessing, just in my heart intending, just in radical self forgiveness and forgiveness of others, I feel such inner peace.
No more pulling from the past, this is a new adventure. This is movement. This is the movement I’ve asked for. Not being stagnant. I am in love. I am love. I am at peace. I am joy. I am fun. I am light. and I don’t need to show it off to have it be real or validated. This experience is between me and Source…me simply experiencing higher frequency causes such big ripples energetically. No need to persuade the logical minds of beings to prove it so that it exists. It exists because it exists!
To learn brings me joy. To be in my body brings me joy. To move brings me excitement. Yes, how exciting it is to transform ourselves over and over again. How exciting it is to fully see the pieces of truth in ourselves. Through interaction with others, yes, appease the joyful sounds and ripples of our own narrative to transfer into another’s brain and body. Energy transference. And to those in pain, you transmute. *Only when you’re ready though.* Transmute through forgiveness, compassion.. transmute through thoughts and shifting beliefs using our mind-body connection, not logic. For logic keeps us strategizing and trapped inside the loop of trauma. We deserve relief from our own traumas. The only way through is to feel through it without judgment or trying to understand it. How the body moves, it is so. Meet yourself as if you’d meet your friend or hold space for your healing as you would for your kids and/or loved ones. AND you cannot do this alone. You are not alone. One is never alone to endure such pain. You can allow others to bring you peace, comfort, love, joy. Stillness, mindfulness, integration. Yes, gives such newness in you.
The fault where we all get caught sometimes is reaching back towards a prized time in our lives when everything was “right and perfect”. We all have a place where we’d like to fall back to when times are more simpler. I’ve learned that that’s just as damaging as reaching back, towards a dark time and reliving our trauma. Perpetual cycles of the past takes us away from present moment newness, the world of possibilities.
Well then you may ask, “where does one reach for then?” Present moment. Particularly present moment contrast and desires/preferences. You can engage in your magic ONLY in the present. That playful imaginative sense of love, light and joy as you were when you were a child. Yes, that is pure love, pure magic. Pure possibilities. Tangible peace…mmm… just this. Just this is where miracles exist. Such truths beyond what they relay. For when you’re stuck in that loop of trauma, remember your breath and that slow intimate part of your truth. Be. Well. Consider the love you can just acknowledge that others can give. As I have taken the first step in sharing my truth without the story of the trauma. I’m not having others buy into that. I asked simply for a hug. I dared to ask for support and of course, as always, it came.
Integration: completion of our trauma cycles is what can give us so much more space to create and be in love. Only when you’re ready, of course.
